I almost quit photography a number of times. When I mean “almost quit“, I mean that I actually sold half my equipment and closed my website.
I get so frustrated and stressed with this job sometimes and it quite hard to see if it’s all worth it or not.
The last time I tried to quit, I gave myself an ultimatum. There’s was a photography workshop happening in Portugal and I decided that I would go and see if I came back inspired … or devastated. I told myself that it would ultimately decide my fate for me.
This workshop was with 10 speakers, from around the world, who spoke to us about their businesses. What they ended up doing however is, open up to us about their frustrations and hardships.
Were we all going through the same thing?
What I ended up learning about myself was that photography is frustrating for one reason: As photographers, we struggle constantly with trying to show our vision to the world. We have a picture in our mind of how we see the world but we struggle to be able to show people exactly how we see it. Does that make sense?
We struggle to show people our thoughts and our emotions through a photograph. How we feel when looking at something. As photographers, we experience and feel every part of what we see. We take our surroundings and turn it into an image in our heads and then search for ways to perfectly interpret that piece of ourselves and make it available for everyone to see. Most of the time, we fail at it and people see simply a photo. That’s it. Without the meaning behind it.
Every day, we are on a journey.
Photographers get emotionally invested with their subjects and the images they create together. It’s not a “just a few photos” for us. We study our subjects and see how we can materialize what we see so that they can see it too. Photography (for us) is a way to make people understand you better and see you from the inside.
I constantly feel different from most people. I am in a constant battle to be better and feel understood. Photographers wear their hearts on their sleeves (and cameras) and give it to you to analyze. I am just vulnerable… all the time.
When a prospective client contacts me and says that they just need a few photos for a few hours because a photographer is simply needed for the event, it hurts. Not because I don’t want to work but because, my photography, to me, is much more important than ” just a few photos”.
Photography is not easy to explain. Does it show?
Most people think that it’s about pointing a camera at a subject and pressing a button. That it’s about capturing what’s in front of you and being able to show it to other people.
Professional Photographers don’t see it at such, however.
Sure, I take good photos. Most people will love my photography and will praise my efforts but, only because we know how to expose our photo correctly.
They will have a hard time seeing the emotional reasoning for that photograph. A photograph isn’t an image. It’s an experience. It’s a reason to feel. If you don’t feel, I failed. And I fail a lot since photography is so misunderstood.
All this, changes when I find my perfect client, however.
The people I want to photograph are people that value a memory, that loves love and thinks it’s more important to spend time with their surrounding than to have the perfect shoe for an event.
My clients have hardly any decor at their weddings and won’t think if their mom should be dressed or not in the photos. They wouldn’t care. Because as long as she’s there, it’s all that matters.
No matter if there’s smiles or tears, they’ll be glad that a photographer was around to capture the emotion behind a moment in time.
My perfect client understands that happy moments are what keeps us alive and sad moments is what makes us grow. Both are equally important and both should be remembered.
When I first started photography, my goal was to photograph people and show them how amazingly beautiful they are. My goals never changed. The only difference now is that I came to realize that beauty isn’t always smile and happiness. You are beautiful even when you aren’t at your best. Because you are unique. Because you are YOU.
No more bright studios and perfect lighting for me. Instead, I want to photograph more people in their homes, where people are free to be themselves. It could be in happy moments or not so happy ones. As long as I get to photograph YOU. Because I can prove to you that no matter in what state of mind you are, you are amazing just the way you are.
The photos you took are unbelievable. Your exuberance for the trade [of photography] comes through in the pictures you take. We are so happy that you were part of our wedding day [ in winnipeg ]
Well... There are no words to describe how amazing our wedding and engagement pictures are! We just looked at them together tonight for the first time and we got to re-live our wedding day! Isa, you truly are an incredibly talented photographer! We cannot thank you enough for capturing our wedding day [in punta cana] and we thank you for making sure we have the most wonderful memories for the rest of our lives. You are a gem!!
As you may already know, Young and I are not people of many words lol But we would like to take a moment to thank you for the amazing job you did at our wedding. Thanks to you, our living room wall is no longer a white wall - even though it took us forever to choose our favourites - we love them all!
Isabella was amazing. We had a very small wedding [in Costa Rica] and she fit right in. Everyone absolutely loved her and kept telling us so. It was great to have an engagement shoot with her - that was easy - But because we benefited from her amazing photography skills! We have hundreds of beautiful photos that are exactly what we wanted! We love them and we love her! Thank you!
Nous avons reçu les photos et nous sommes complètement sous le choc!! On les adore!!! Tu as vraiment du talent, tu as réussis a nous faire ressembler a des vrai models! hihihi !! Nous voulions simplement te remercier et te faire part de notre bonheur 😀
We would like to thank you for making us so comfortable and for creating intimacy with the photos you took. You guys know that the bride and groom don't get much time together on such a day... So, when we were posing for the photos of just us, you were really able to give us that moment we were hoping for... Honestly there are not enough words to give you the proper praise. You were the most flexible and pleasant team we worked with through this process and we really appreciate everything you did.
Isabella, thank you for having gone above and beyond throughout the trip and wedding day. From planner, to hairdresser, to photographer and so much more, you rock!! We made the best decision when we decided to bring you [to costa rica]. Everyone is still raving about you. We're so happy!
Thank you for the wedding photos. We are completely stunned at how beautiful they all are. You were a total champ. You make everyone feel so comfortable and it really comes through in all the photos. You captured all the moments so perfectly. Some moments we weren't even expecting to have, you got them! It's amazing that we can look through the photos and basically re-live every moment. You did an incredible, amazing job. We couldn't have chosen a better photographer.
Roel and I invested on our wedding photos and we could not be happier with the results. Isabella, took absolutely breathtaking photos and I just can't stop showing them off. She is very organized, experienced and energetic. Put your trust in her and she will do wonders!
Isa! We are overwhelmed by the photos. Thank you so much. We just got to relive our wedding day from all the perspectives.. Your work is incredible. You rock! Can't wait to look at them again and again..